Have you ever heard of PMDD? It’s basically severe PMS. (Find more out here.) I hadn’t heard of it until about 2 years ago when I was diagnosed with it.
Let’s go back in time for a minute: In late 2012, I went nuts. Literally, crazy. My emotions were all over the place. I couldn’t control them at all. I possessed so much anxiety, anger, and sadness. Friendships were ruined and I hurt a lot of people I care about. Thoughts of suicide sat heavy on my brain. It all started in September of that year, I had just stopped breastfeeding my one year old and I had a very active 2 ½ year old. I thought, “Two kids, two and under. I am probably just sleep deprived. That’s got to be what is going on with me.” So, I just kept chugging along.
When my feelings weren’t getting any better, I decided to start seeing a therapist. After several months, I started to realize my therapist was getting annoyed with me because all of my “huge problems” were actually quite petty. Luckily, my awesome husband didn’t take kindly to my bullying either, but he also very much understood I was having a hard time.
In addition to everything going on in my own head, my husband and I were also realizing our youngest son had special needs (you may know my youngest son has autism spectrum disorder.) I wanted to connect some dots for you. 2012-2014 is the same time frame we were finding all of that out.
As the year passed, I started to recognize there was a monthly pattern to my emotions. My solution was to just start avoiding people during those times of rage. Insomnia was also very much a part of my life. I would sit up at night and worry that a friend of mine was saying something bad about me. I lost so much sleep thinking people were saying things they weren’t. (Who cares, right? Well, I certainty did.) I felt miserable.
In December of 2013, I finally called my GYN and made an appointment. I had been keeping a mood journal for several months and shared what I had been experiencing. That’s when I received the PMDD diagnosis. My doctor prescribed me a daily dose of 20mg of fluoxetine (Prozac) to help stabilize my mood.
The first several weeks of taking this medication my body did not react well, but the doctor told me to stick it out and make it to the six week point. So I did. That made all the difference in the world. I was myself again. All the worrying was gone. I could finally enjoy my family the way I had always wanted to.
Alright, now let fast forward to November and December 2015. I was beginning to recognize some changes in my mood again. This time I chalked it up to being stressed about the holidays.
One morning, I guess I was in a particularly bad mood and I was yelling at my five year old because he was running late for school. He looked up at me with big teary eyes and said “Mommy why are you being so mean to me? Can you stop yelling at me please? It hurts my feelings.” I stopped dead in my tracks. I hadn’t even realized I was yelling. That’s when it dawned on me; all of my PMDD symptoms were back. I called my doctor immediately. He said sometimes this can happen where your medication can “poop-out” or stop working. So, he recommended that I up my daily dosage.
Right now, I am in the middle of the adjustment period to the new dosage and I am not entirely sure it is working. I am awake during the nights and sleeping during the days. My dreams are so stressful that my rest doesn’t even feel like rest. I keep getting so worn down that I keep getting other sicknesses as well. So, with all of that being said, I am going to have to step back from the blog and focus on my health, personal struggles, and my family. This decision did not come easy to me, as I have loved meeting people, sharing ideas, and working with my sister on Elizabeth Joan Designs. I am sure Erin will have many great new things to share with you. And who knows, I may pop in every now and then to share the happenings around here.
Well, thanks again for all of your support and goodbye for now!
Wreaths are such an easy way to bring some festive decor inside or outside your home for the holidays. There are so many beautiful holiday wreaths out there, we decide to share a collection of a few of our favorites with you.
Dried Citrus Wreath by Twine and Table
Book Page Wreath by Elizabeth Joan Designs
Scandinavian Inspired Christmas Wreath by Hello Lidy
Joy Outdoor Wreath Sign by Fynes Designs
Scarf Wreath by Elizabeth Joan Designs
Boxwood Wreath Shades of Blue Interiors by
Easy Winter Pom Pom Wreath by Elizabeth Joan Designs
Mini Wood Slice Wreath by Becoming Martha
We hope you liked this week’s round up! Which wreath is your favorite? We would love to hear from you!
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The holiday season is in full swing. As you are searching for gift ideas for your loved ones, keep in mind our wonderful list of gifts for $10 and under and our rustic style gift guide. Since we are a DIY blog, it only seemed natural to compile a list of fabulous DIY Gifts for you too. Whether you are on tight budget, a crafty sort of person, or want to try something new, these DIY Gifts are a wonderful way to wish your friends and a family happy holidays.
Dip Mix Ornaments by Bubbly Nature Creations
Clementine Wreaths by Omiyage Blogs
DIY Painted Kitchen Towels by Addicted 2 DIY
DIY Bath Fizzy Bombs by Sarah Titus
Quote Pillow by Inspired by This
Anniversary Art by Elizabeth Joan Designs
Jack Daniels Soap Dispenser by Curly Birds
Magnetic Wristband by My Altered State
Bragg Book by Nalle’s House
Sock Monkey by Craft Passion
Kids’ Tool Belt by Elizabeth Joan Designs
DIY Doctor Play Set by My Poppet
We hope you liked this week’s round up! Do you make your own holiday gifts? We would love to hear from you!
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Welcome to the Holiday Home Tour 2015! If you are new to our blog or a frequent reader, we are so excited to have you here. Also, if you are coming over from Up to Date Interiors, welcome to you too. My name is Emily and I blog here at Elizabeth Joan Designs with my sister, Erin. Today, I’m sharing my a tour of my home decorated for the holidays. (Check out Erin’s My Home Style Blog Hop: Christmas Tree Edition coming up next week.)
Are you recovering from Thanksgiving okay? I have been so bombarded with sickness over the past month, I can’t wait to start feeling better. Soon, I hope. Well, come on in and see our simple holiday decor for the year.
I recently shared an entryway update, but now I get to show it off all decked-out for the winter season.
The Polar Express is one of our family’s all time favorite Christmas books. Wreaths are so beautiful and simple, I knew this year I had to have mini ones displayed on our kitchen cabinets. I love the contrast of the green wreaths on the white cabinets. Here in western New York we see a lot of snow. My attitude is if you can beat ’em, join ’em, hence the snowflakes on our kitchen window. Oh, my pride and joy: our buffet table and pegboard. This is one of my favorite spots in the whole house. A few neutral touches brings this area up to speed with the rest of our holiday decor. Who decorates their bathroom for Christmas? I do, and proud of it. Just because it is the smallest room in the house doesn’t mean it can’t join in the festivities. We are introducing a new to us family tradition this holiday season. Ever heard of the Christmas Pickle? You can read all about it on Wikipedia. Just like I shared in last years holiday home tour, we put up our Advent calendar again. Let the count down begin! That’s all I have for you this home tour. Hopefully I will be feeling better soon so we can get our living room decorated before the holidays come and go. Have you started decorating yet?
Your next stop is Pretty Practical Home. Become inspired by hopping around and take a look at all of these amazing home tours happening all week!
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